Thursday, October 31, 2013

THE CRAZY THINGS I THINK:



I’ve come to the realization that my brain goes to some crazy places throughout the day so as much as I try to keep my post relevant to what a larger scale of women, moms, wife’s might feel, this post might be a stretch. Here’s to hoping ya’ll can relate to my crazy thoughts or at least be entertained with a day inside the head of Gentry Jones. Maybe I should write this post as my alias Gwendolyn Jabali….just to be safe.

5:15 am—I get up and make a cup of coffee. I open the cupboard to get the creamer, “UGH” I forgot I’m out of creamer. Dang it I guess I’m going to have to use milk, I don’t really love my coffee with milk but I definitely don’t like it black! I open the fridge “F-WORD! Mr. Chocolate Milk boy finished the milk last night” “Ughh no milk, I can’t drink it without milk. Maybe I should just dump it out and forgo coffee this morning.” “No way this is K-cup coffee that one K-cup was like $1.17 including tax.” “Well maybe I could just give it to Andy?” “Ugh..I don’t want to give it to Andy if I want my caffeine/I need it!!!” (I often argue with myself in my head!) This is about the time I saw a bottle of breast milk on the bottom shelf. I know what you are thinking ‘SHE DIDN’T’ well… “Oh my gosh would that be totally gross if I used my own milk?” “Why would it? I mean we drink milk from a cow…what is really more gross?” “But it is my OWN milk.. is that like some form of cannibalism?” “That’s just ridiculous.” “This milk isn’t easy to come by, should I really be stealing from my baby like that?” “Have you looked at your baby, he’s clearly not starved and you pumped more milk than he needs for today.” “Ok, I’m going to use it, it really can’t be that weird right…? It’s just milk? Oh no what if I like it? What if I start pumping for the sole purpose to use it in my coffee? What if I don’t have my pump with me when I need a boobie milk creamer fix… what kind of things will I resort to? And what’s next? I’ve drank my own milk, next thing you know it I’m drinking my own urine? If I do this will I have to get one of those snake eating itself tattoos?” “OMG it’s just milk, put it in your coffee and just go get ready!!” “I’M DOIN’ IT!” I grab the bottle and quietly check around the corner to make sure my hubby isn’t up. “Mmmm good leche!!” “Oh no!! Andy knew we were out of milk. What if he sees my coffee is a lighter color and questions where I got the milk/cream.” “Gentry, Andy doesn’t even notice when you get your hair cut you think he’s going to notice the color of your coffee?” “Good point Gentry… Thanks for calming me down!!” 

6:30 a.m.—Andy finally gets up… he manages to shower, shave, get dressed, and drink two cups a coffee in a whopping 10 minutes. I watch this in amazement. “Man it sure must be nice to be a boy! Maybe I should cut my hair short, stop wearing makeup, get a boob reduction…” “ha what boobs?” “shut up!” “…and live life like an easy going care free dude.” This is about the time Andy and I make eye contact. “Oh no he’s on to me… he knows something… Does he know I experimented with my own lactation...? Do I have a milk mustache? Does he know I want to be a dude? Should I just come clean now!?! STOP LOOKING AT ME WITH THOSE JUDGMENTAL EYES!!!” I scoot my coffee out of sight and try to appear more feminine. Andy gives me a confused look, shakes his head, and leaves the bathroom. “Yeah you better keep walking!!! Whoa that was a close one!! I almost confessed my inner most personal thoughts to my husband!! How embarrassing would that be if those got out!?!!”

7:15 a.m.-- As we are getting out the door, Beckham is choosing this high stress moment to test my patience! I’m thinking “I’m a fairly calm patient person, yet I want to lose my cool and smack this little boy…Of course I would never!!! It’s like I never want to actually paper cut my husband’s balls, but I think about it sometimes! My point is I’m pretty calm but he sure likes to test that, how do people with real anger issues have kids? I feel bad for those kids.” (Rule #3-Don’t go calling CPS…again… I really don’t and never will hit my kids!! I’m just expressing my frustration getting out the door. Plus Becks often gets in trouble for being aggressive, like hitting and throwing things. I believe using aggression in an attempt to teach a child to not be aggressive is extremely confusing. Often the calmer I stay the quicker I get him to obey (sometimes a lot easier said than done). BUT to each their own!! As for paper cutting my husband’s balls…? Ok I do occasionally consider that!)

7:20 a.m.—We get in the car and drive down the road. At the stop sign I think. “The mountain looks B-E-A-utiful! I should just turn right and drive to it right now! Skip work, take the kids on a field trip, after the mountain maybe head to Seattle to surprise my sissy!?! turn left=work=lame…turn right=adventure=fun!” This is where turning 25 has really been a fun sucker. “No, you can’t do that! You would lose your job, then you wouldn’t have an income, you would lose your car, possibly your house. People would see you as unreliable!” “Ughhh so glad you decided to join us prefrontal cortex. You’ve forced me to focus my thoughts, control my impulses and to weigh possible consequences…where were you when I thought self-waxing would be a good idea?? Life was a lot more fun before you started talking!! I don’t like that name Prefrontal Cortex… it’s too long, if you are going to come around I need to give you a cool nickname like Pref Co..? P-front  C-tex…? Ohh or PC-Tex….?” “Turn left” “Yes Ma’am… PC Pimpin’…!?”

7:45a.m.—I get the kids to daycare, enjoy my 2 second sigh that the responsibility has successfully been passed (do a quick prayer for Carri), and switch my brain to work mode!! 

10:00a.m.—I catch myself day dreaming. “Is it weird that I am day dreaming about doing Kim Kardashians tax return right now? Could you imagine all of the Schedule C’s and K-1’s she must have!!?! I wonder how much tax she has to pay each year...? What kind of tax breaks do people that make bazillion dollars get? Can she use her glam squad as a tax write off? This year she will get to claim a dependent, which will surely help her out a lot!! Haha jk with as much as she makes it won’t help her at all muhahaha take that rich parents!” “Get back to work!” “Hello! I was wondering when you were going to chime in Pre Cor…? Pref-C…? PC-Tex thuggin’..?!? “GET BACK TO WORK!” “Ok…but this isn’t over! You’ll have a nickname by the end of the day!”

12:15 p.m.—“Should I quit my job join a traveling interpretive dance team and pursue a creative writing career on the side?” “No!” “Fair enough… I miss my kids!!”

3:15p.m.—As I’m waiting for the copier at work and contemplating where I’m going to get my snake eating itself tattoo, I decide I want to get a pet turtle, and name him Sam. 

5:15p.m.—“YAY!! I get to go pick up my boys!! I’m so excited!! I’ve missed them sooo much!! I love them more than I can even describe! I feel bad for getting mad at Beckham this morning! I’m going to give him extra positive attention tonight.” I walk in the door, feeling high with love…when I’m met with Beckham throwing a block at the window, him refusing to put his shoes on, him crying that he wants to stay at Coco’s house, he won’t get in the car unless he can bring a stick, hits me with the stick as I’m driving, I take the stick so he takes his shoes off and throws them, he tries to get out of his car seat, meanwhile Brody is screaming because he hates the car.

5:30p.m.—I pull up to our house… “Only 14 more hours until I get to go back to work!!”

5:45p.m.—Beckham‘s on the counter helping me make dinner and when I say “helping” I mean it’s kinda like eating oreos while brushing your teeth. As I’m getting slightly irritated that Beckham is making cooking more challenging, he says “I like cooking with you momma! What should we make next?” I think “Oh isn’t that so sweet!! I like cooking with him too…OK I know it is a little messier with him in the kitchen but I’d rather us be spending time together then sitting him in front of the T.V. the whole time I’m making dinner. Plus, what if I get him excited about cooking at a young age, then he could start making dinners and I won’t have too. He could become a famous chef, have his own T.V. show on food network, and I could be his momager!! J STAGE MOM HERE I COME!!” “Easy there Gwendolyn… just enjoy the time you are getting to spend with him!”

6:00p.m.—The dinner recipe calls for milk… “Dang it I forgot to stop and get milk.” “I know where you could find some milk! J” “OH no… not this again!!!!”

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